The world will not end

He told me some things yesterday that hurt so much and made me want out of here that much faster at the same time. We were playing a game with my daughters and went outside for a moment. While there he told me he had been lying to me and that he had been hanging out with that girl more because she is the only friend he has put here. We moved an hour away from where he has always lived because of my children and wanting to be close to their family. He also said that he wanted me to know the truth because it had finally been put to him so that he understood that the truth hurts less than lies. He said he didn't want me to accuse him of anything so I just asked him If he had an affair. He said he didn't because he had me and that was enough. I wanted to scream and tell when he said that because really who just leaves the person that is enough. I thought for a moment about that reaction. That was the old me (before my world was turned upside down) reacting. The new me simply said "obviously I wasn't enough" and the topic changed to letting him understand that it still is so hard not to think he is cheating when he sleeps at her house more than he sleeps here.

I am still working on getting out of this house. I need the healing that you have assured me will come. It might even make it where I am strong enough to take the wedding band off. He won't take his off because he says he only wore it because it was important to me. He said for him it was just an excuse to get a ring he liked. He has moved it to his right hand and even with my engraving "all my love forever Nicole" I know it will stay there.

I go back to my therapist today and have to sort through the worst reaction from a person I told yet. I told the girls aunt when I was asking her to watch them for a few appointments this week and all she said was that having a husband is overrated. I can understand that reaction If I had told her that I didn't know If I would ever meet someone again, but I was telling her how my husband threw me out of his life like yesterday's trash. I wasn't prepared for the reaction and it caught me very odd guard. I guess now I know to be prepared for all different reactions...